I'm still waiting for yu :')

I need a love,but i'm afraid to be hurt..i don't know either i can still love guys or my heart is dead for guys..i just don't know..but i don't think so...it just that my heart is for yu..ive rejected so many guys just because of yu..i am so in love with yu..and i can't stop this feeling.I never have this long feeling with anybody before.Are yu the one for me? or is this just..hmm whatever it is..im still waiting for yu :')

He POP UP at my Twitter Mention this Morning !! xD

Im feeling so damn Happy when i saw his name pop-up at my twitter mention this morning and saying....


THIS !!

It meant alot to me :')

Seriously Daniel yur wish meant alot to me :') and about "even I'm not a good friend" for me yu always be my best friend babe.Our Friendship meant everything to me and thank yu so much for yur wish xx

i felt like an UGLY BITCH WHO SEEKING FOR PEOPLE LOVE !!

Maybe I was stupid for Falling in Love with yu...Maybe I was so stupid for taking care alot bout yu,Maybe i was stupid for putting alot of hopes on yu..maybe I am !!

I don't know why,I let all this happen to me??whyy??Now I'm getting sad,I cried,I mad with everybody b/c of yu..but I don't blame yu..I blame myself cause I was stupid enough for falling in love with yu.If I don't fall in love with yu..things will never be like this.Maybe I was born to be Forever Alone..and I guess I just not suits yu..yu're handsome and cute and everything that girl ever wanted..YU ARE SO PERFECT !! But me just a typical girl that falling for such a guy??!! I'm not perfect at all..I know that I'm not beautiful.I know that I'm fat..whose gonna love me??even my mom always getting mad at me !! NO ONE gonna love me ..i felt like an UGLY BITCH WHO SEEKING FOR PEOPLE LOVE !!

❦ Be Your Everything ❤

This song I dedicated to yu Daniel only yu,I know its just a lyrics..but if yu read every single words of this lyrics..maybe yu might know what I'm trying to say :')

Four Letter wordBut I don't have the guts to say itSmile till' it hurtsLet's not make it complicatedWe've got a storyBut I'm about to change the ending   You're perfect for meYou're more than just a friendSo we can just stop pretending now
Gotta let you know somehowI'll be your shelterI'll be your stormI'll make you shiverI'll keep you warmWhatever weatherBaby I'm yoursBe your forever, be your flingBaby I will be your everything
Baby IBaby I willBaby I will be your everything  We used to say That we would always stick togetherBut who's to sayThat we could never last forever  Boy,got a questionCould you see yourself with somebody else? 'Cause I'm on a missionAnd I don't wanna shareI want you all to myself right nowAnd I just wanna scream it out  I'll be your shelter I'll be your stormI'll make you shiverI'll keep you warmWhatever weatherBaby I'm yoursBe your forever, be your flingBaby I will be your everything
Baby IBaby I willBaby I will be your everything
No matter what you doI'll be there for youAnd every time you close your eyesI will be by your side'Cause every time you make me singBaby I will be your everything  I'll be your shelterI'll be your stormI'll make you shiverI'll keep you warmWhatever weatherBaby I'm yours  Be your forever, be your flingBaby I will be your everythingBaby IBaby I willBaby I will be your everything  **actually i kept this song inside me for so long..i just need the right time to tell yu about this :') and now this is it !!

❥Daniel Decker a.k.a DD ღ

Hey peeps..whats up ?? :D No recent posts lately aight?? No stories though :/ *sigh*
Right now I'm gonna tell yu guys about one of my bestie that i really love :)

Well i met this guy name Daniel Decker at facebook.My first expression bout him is "Arrogant" i though he was snobby..but then i tried to talk to him..and yeah i was wrong,he is very friendly and more than i ever imagine.He is so kind.So i tell him that i want to be his friend..and he say yeah.Talk,talk and talk and i even share my secrets with him..about my ex-boyfriends,my friends,family.He's a good listener and a good advisor too :) whenever i talked to him,ill feel extremly nice...and then i started to love him as my BESTFRIEND..F.Y.I i never had any guy bestfriend..i do friends with some guys but none of them can understand me just like DD did.Ouhhh DD..before i forget DD is his nickname..and i used to call him with that 2 letter words sometimes..lol..

 Back to the story.

Whenever i feel sad,i always wanted him to be with me..i always wanted him to hug me like a bestfriend always do..*sigh* i wish that we live in the same place,so we can go out 2gether,hang 2gether..and do everything 2gether just like 'BESTFRIENDS' always did..i always wanted all that in my life but still dont get it.But since he started to be a Fashion Designer/Writer i dont always talk to him :'( He's busy with his works and i busy with  my school..and then i started to feel like im losing him day by day :( however i still talked to him but not as always ..:'(

TO BE HONEST DANIEL !!
I want to turn back time when we had our first conversations..i want to talk with yu like we always did before..and i want yu to be there for me whenever i need yu ..but i know i could never get all that .
NEVER !! *tears* and my love for yu as my buddy are never changed..it just the same..

and i NEVER REGRET MEETING YOU,but i FEEL SO GLAD MEETING YOU !! IT WAS NICE TO MEET A PERSON THAT HAD SUCH A SWEET HEART.

I DONT WANT TO LOSE YU ,NEVER EVER EVER !! xx and I LOVE YU SO MUCHH !! MUCH THAT YU NEVER THOUGHT !!

My result is quite Good for the First Trial ;)

Whats Up dear bloggers :) How r yu guys all??
Well Well..I would like to Thank to God b/c of him i got a better result for my first trial :) but i still got one failed ..:( Well let see what i've got here ;)

• Malay language - B
• English language - B
• Mathematics - E
• Science - D
• Geography - D
• History - D
• Living Skills (Kemahiran Hidup) - C
• Islamic Studies - D

Well as yu guys can see i got 'D' alot in the result..hmm well i already try my best and maybe this is my best result that i can give.. i guesss :/

Awwww :')

I HOPE THAT IM THE ONLY ONE TO BE YUR LIL BABY <3

I MISS HER TOO :'(

I Can't Love My family,No More

Heys guys..i can't believe that im gonna say this but yeah I CANT LOVE MY FAMILY,NO MORE !! I don't know why but i just cant..maybe because of what they have done to me,i don't want to be a selfish or ego but the things that they did to me,i still can feel it,the scars that left me remind me of everything .. It Hurt Me Alot,Alot that i can't except it anymore !!

SHARMIN ANNIE IS THE REASON I STAY STRONG !!

SHARMIN ANNIE ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART !!!

I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU :'(

Okay..seriously i'm missing my big sister Annie so much.its been a few weeks im not talking with her..hmm,im totally blank !! I don't know what else i'm gonna say?? just that i miss everything that we've been through,if she still remember though !! but i bet she don't and i bet she found a new replacement of MYSELF !!! I can't believe it..after a weeks she never post or inbox me not even text me :'( im waiting for her post or inbox but i've got none from her :(( im very sad..when i told her that she's changing,one of her lil sister mad at me,she don't know what i feel..Now i was on exam, i wish she's here with me but no she's not..i guess she's don't care  about me anymore or SHE ALREADY DELETE ME FROM HER LIFE...i wish i could be with her like before..i want to spend time with here like before,now what's happening to US?? WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPEN BETWEEN ATIKAH & ANNIE???!!!!

ღ Im SPEECHLESS ღ

I didn't mean to start a fight !!

yesterday is the worst day in my life.. i had a fight with my own elder sister..it a worst nightmare in my life too..and i never though a misunderstood can turn into a worst fight . 

Hey my angel if yu reading this then im gonna say Im really really sorry..i never mean to hurt or to make yu cry and ik i mess up things alot..Im sorry with the words that i said to yu..seriously sis i never mean it..its just that i was really shattered and tensed and everything came out..Im really really sorryyyyy i didnt mean to start a fight with yu and i dont want to have a fight with yu either its just that i feel a lil different in yu..until now i still have no gut to tell yu whyyy i feel that way.I hope yu will realize it one day.and yu know i couldnt sleep well last nite i keep wondering bout yu..but just some people wont understand me.I know some people might said im a bad lil sister b/c i couldnt make my elder sister happy & i give her a tensed..i know exactly what people would said..!!! 

SO ONCE AGAIN IM REALLY REALLY SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE TO YU SO I HOPE YU COULD FORGIVE ME AND WE CAN TALK AND HAVE FUN LIKE THE WAY WE USED TO BE !! <3 I MISS THAT MOMENT AND I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE <3 

P/S : IM MISSING YU ALOTS SHARMIN ANNIE